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Mr. Lazarus Lim Sing Sing
Assistant Director

I was brought up by my maternal grandmother. My parents left me in her care when I was very young, and I had a very lonely childhood. I envied the other children and also felt sad when I saw them with their parents. I was especially miserable during Lunar New Year when I had reunion dinner alone with my grandmother while others celebrated as families. I started to feel resentful and bitter about my own life.   

I dropped out of school before completing secondary one and started working. I soon got to know the street gangs and longed to be one of them. Under their influence I soon picked up all the vices – smoking, drinking, drugs, gambling, glue sniffing, cannabis, and even LSD.   

My grandmother died when I was 17 and I was devastated. How was I to live now that I had lost my only relative? I also became homeless. I was soon arrested for attempted robbery under the influence of LSD and subsequently sentenced to 2 years jail and 6 strokes of the cane.   

Upon my release in 1990 I joined a group I had met in prison and became a loan shark, and I also started frequenting nightspots. I was tired of being dependent on others for my lodging and decided to look for my father. My perseverance paid off and I located my long-lost father. We enjoyed a brief period of father-son time together. My father did not know of my drug addiction. My father died not long after that, and so did my mother. I was truly orphaned. That was when I felt desolate, lonely and deserted by all. Overwhelmed by feelings of emptiness and loneliness, I turned to LSD daily to numb my senses.   

Then, disaster struck! I was at home sniffing glue and taking an overdose of LSD with alcohol. It caused me to hallucinate and I jumped off the 15th floor of my block, landed on a car and flattened it. I was in a coma for two months. When I came to I found that I could not move my legs. The bones in seven parts of my body were broken, including my legs and arms and spine. My stomach had been operated on, and an opening was made at my throat. Only my head was not injured. I was in great pain and deep despair.   

One day a Christian doctor came to visit and shared the gospel with me. He told me that Jesus loved me and would help me, but I doubted if Jesus would help a cripple like me. The Christian doctor continued to visit me every day to have Bible study and pray with me and help me in many ways. We were strangers and he had nothing to gain from me. Why did he care for me? I was very touched that someone would be concerned for me in my helpless state. I decided to accept Jesus Christ as my personal Lord and Savior.   

After 10 months at the hospital I was told I would be discharged, but I had nowhere to go and no one to look after me. I would also be wheelchair-bound for the rest of my life. I was entirely at a loss. Then came the good news. Another Christian doctor came to my assistance. He arranged for me to come to Breakthrough Missions. In this large family full of the Lord’s love and grace, I no longer felt lonely. I had worried that my physical handicap would be a burden to the brothers but they helped me willingly and gave me their loving encouragement. I experienced true warmth and love!   

Praise the Lord! I later became a staff member of Breakthrough Missions. In 2000 I completed the Basic Evangelical Certificate course at the Singapore Bible College and became a preacher. I have been serving in rehabilitation centers and prisons as counselor to ex-drug abusers for more than 20 years. The Lord also led me to many countries to witness for Him. The most beautiful blessing that God has given me is my devoted wife, Lee Sah, as well as our lovely child. I thank God for His wondrous and bountiful blessing!   

No one could have fallen 15 floors to the ground and lived. Even if he survived he would have been reduced to a vegetative state. Praise the Lord! I am still alive today! Although I cannot walk, my hands are able to do much work and my mouth can witness the grace and love of the Lord. To God be all glory and praise!